Angel numbers and more... :)

I have been barraged by angel numbers of late. Couldn't ignore it again when I woke up at 3:33 a.m. today. :) This has been quite a week with the The Death Inside The Death Summit. When death hits family dysfunction...  Each day the speakers have been so worth listening to.  Today is Day 5 of 5.  Next week will be interesting as to how I "craft" a new daily schedule.  Having this AND my cat tending has worked well.  7 a.m. to cat, chore of the day, walk, session 1 at 1 p.m., 2:30 p.m. cat tend #2, eat meal #2, read/watch news/CREATE TV episode whichever draws me in, session 2 at 6 p.m., 7:30 p.m. end-o-day for me.  :)

So summit over today, swimming lady/cat owner back Saturday, 20 days until TX/NM friend arrives in town.  I need to keep a keen eye on what I do with these 20 days in prep for people.  :)  Sisters #4,6 are due to town on Oct 24.  Good dose of anticipatory anxiety popping up.  :) It is going to be jarring for me - timewise, moneywise, exercise wise...For some reason AGAIN Oct 15-Jan 15 are tricky times for me in my Greta Garbo "'I want to be let alone."  :)  I take solace in the summit, my tire pumper upper machine, and the positive developments in my son's life.  The last one with deepest meaning.  I will keep the good thought that his life will begin a complete and total "up and to the right" progression as his father's did at the same age my son finds himself at.  

So yesterday - finished A Fortune of Sand - no classic, but enjoyed all the Detroit history and geographic references, cat, walked, session 1, cat, session 2.  Was not called in to help family friend with grandson coverage while she went to a doctor's appt.  Phew!  Did start A Vast Horizon.  I seem to be going back and forth with non-fiction and fiction. 

Today - last day of summit, next to last day of cat tend, temp to be almost 80...I will spend as much time outside as possible.  :)  

Put some more reward dollars on sister #1's S&S shopping.  Looks like it will be another close to $1000 worth of grocery shopping for her and her gentleman caller and their company this summer vacay time.  YIKES!  My budget for the month is that number minus a zero.  :)  I do enjoy my little game of clipping coupons and converting her points into dollars.  :)

Don’t waste time trying to make sense of your actions because they are motivated by a deep desire to get things done no matter what the dangers might be. This is one of those occasions when impulsive behavior could actually work well for you.

Arguments could arise while Mercury forms a t-square with Mars and Pluto, changing the way you feel about certain people. Be mindful of who you confront and why, dear Libra. Those around you will quickly go to battle if provoked, and you might regret stirring the pot. Prioritize mindfulness, spirituality, and personal balance as the Gemini Moon aspects Chiron and the nodes of fate before entering Cancer this afternoon. You'll become increasingly sensitive as the hours pass, and may put up walls as an act of self-preservation. Spend quality time with someone you can relax around when Luna aligns with Neptune and Mars this evening. 

There may be a great tension between you and someone older today, Libra. Perhaps there's someone who's adopting a sort of "parent knows best" personality that's starting to annoy you. Take a breather. Realize that this person isn't being critical or judgmental but just giving you advice. You should open your eyes and understand that this advice could be very useful.

Don't see me interacting with anyone IRL today.  And I am very happy that my online company will be at the summit.  They will be my "someones" I can relax with.  BUT I will try to keep my eyes open if wisdom comes my way - from whomever.  :)  Have a good Friday.  

Rabbit, rabbit, rabbit and a lot more

Two thoughts this a.m. - 3 really - rabbit, rabbit, rabbit for Oct 1, eucalyptus batch that son gave me and hangs in my bathroom, and disco ball...Post equinox has been "churning" as to thoughts.  AND heard from son yesterday that - "Did u know the worker that messed up the pipes? Ha.  Is it a death cafe summit this week or bigger week than usual?  I went on a date other day and she just went to texas for her 40th.  They didnt like austin but everyone loves that hill country.  Things going good over here for most part ha.  Had Miami, NY, Mexico people all in town and a first date...."  I wish him love above all else.  It eluded me, but this is an encouraging development for him.  Fingers crossed, but no motherly advice from me...not my strong suit.  :)  On a different level, but he and I have both had a bit of a jolt as we moved into this next season.  Will see what October brings.  And his asking about the worker who caused the water outage, son knows I am "known" by police and municipal workers in town but luckily I did not know the "culprit".  

So balance of yesterday - cleaned apt, cat tend, walk, EOLD with very interesting new author.  Very intriguing life off the grid in Wisconsin.  And a journey he went on with his family.  On the Threshold of Worlds Tending My Father Before and After His Last Breath.  Then to next ZOOM session of day - Dr. Karen Wyatt: What I Wish Every Family Knew Before Someone They Love is Dying - hospice doctor, then cat tend #2 of day, then finished day with Surviving the Foxhole Nicole Heidbreder: Triangulation, and how to stay out of it - Navigating Family Dynamics at the End of Life.  For me, thought of what each sibling is going to bring to the table if we all revert to the personality and family "role" we had at 12 years old.  

Signed up for Oct Mettle discussion - A universal truth of parenting is that the work of parenting never stops. Even when you need a pause, even when hard things are happening. Together, we will explore why these conversations during challenging moments are so necessary, how to navigate through these conversations, and developmentally what to expect as children receive them.  Emphasis is mine.  :)

Heard from swimming lady.  She will be back Saturday night so I will be off duty as of Sunday a.m.!!!  Her BIL had surgery...90 yr olds having surgery.  You can imagine how I feel about that, but I will temper my share with swimming lady.  

Today - walk, Francesca Arnoldy: The Grapplehood of Grief - first presenter that I have no history on but if it follows the week, it will be thought full.  Evening session - Claire Bidwell Smith: Grief for the Family You Never Had. I know of Claire and the title...direct tie to my heart.  

I continue to enjoy my latest book - The Fortune of Sand.  The meaning of the title just hit me - DUH.  It is set in Detroit, in the 1920's and the family is "the windshield dynasty".  Sand - Glass.  :)  

Something will happen today that forces you to change your opinion about a matter you thought had been settled long ago. It would appear that what you assumed was cut and dried is not quite as straightforward as you persuaded yourself to believe.

The Gemini Moon forms sweet aspects with the Sun and Saturn early this morning, blessing you with a glowing and refined aura. Hype yourself up for a successful day, dearest Libra, taking a moment to connect with your goals in a spiritual way. This energy is perfect for pulling tarot cards, reaffirming your aspirations through affirmations, and listening for guidance from beyond. Once you've stepped out into the world, try to find magick wherever you go. Your influence expands when Luna and Jupiter align this evening, as will your capacity to learn from others. Spend time with intellectually stimulating people to improve your mental agility. 

One quick phone call to a friend may turn into a long discussion about the meaning of life, Libra. Be conscious of the fact that there's a great deal of momentum building in your mind now. Once the dam breaks, you may soon have a giant flood on your hands. Be careful about releasing all this energy at once, even though you may not seem to have a choice.

Hype myself up for a successful day...family friend did call me off being on stand by to watch her grandson while she goes to a doctor's appt so that is a relief.  Will be on the lookout for any need for sand bags to keep the flood back.  :)  Have a good Oct 1 2026 and Thursday.  

One of those days... :)

Well, we will see what ideas pop up today.  Yesterday was chockful.  And also lacking - water in my apt...You can imagine that got me spinning with my "carefree, relaxed" approach to life.  But more on that in a bit.  

My yesterday - cat tend, ran dishwasher (PTL pre water doing off), walk, picked up The Every at library, got home and no water.  Workmen broke something out in front of building so Main St was dry.  Town Hall sent everyone home and I started to make a plan.  BUT first I had "to go" to my ZOOM - The Rest of You Shows Up with Stephen Jenkinson — Orphan Wisdom, Die Wise. Stephen will not soothe you and I did not invite him to. He goes at the culture underneath the family: what happens to adults nobody ever initiated into adulthood, who then find themselves at a deathbed being asked to be grown.  Some of the things I wrote down - "Opportunity to hurt as a condition of being alive", "Family reconstitutes itself around death and its rites become disfiguratively symbolic", "wounded is "at thing" but it is not everything." "It took this."  You had to be there, but in context each thought provoking.  THEN post that session, cat tend and since no water I loaded up and took stuff for a shower at the cat house, jugs and coffee pot to fill up with water.  No coffee in the a.m. was not going to be "a thing".  Before second session of the day, walked up to town DPW to go to the bathroom.  Then session 2: The Dance Doesn't Stop at the End with Daniel Maté — co-author with his father Gabor of The Myth of Normal, and their next book, Hello Again: A Fresh Start for Parents and Adult Children, is out next spring. Daniel has done this in public, with his own father, which is not a small thing to do.  Yikes...parent and adult child paradoxes...  THEN at 7:53 p.m.  I thought I would check water one more time and VOILA it was on.  So I flicked the switch back on for the electric water heater which the landlord had come down and told me to flip the breaker off until the water came back on.  I washed my mean #2 dishes and went to bed.  

Lots of thoughts as I walked yesterday about my disapproval of swimming lady and her cat ownership at almost 90 years old.  Especially as "fire drills" with sister/BIL and/or herself are only going to increase - in my mind.  Why add to the plate of "have tos", expense items, cat tending issues when fire drills happen - when you don't have to at end of life.  Mate brought up the origin of word resentment  -French evolution: Combined with the prefix re-, it formed the Middle French ressentir, meaning "to feel again" or "to feel intensely".  If I can't cat tend without resentment...next ask answer might have to be no.  We will see where I end up at week's end.  No word yet on return from swimming lady, but I will keep the good thought that it will be sooner than later.  Yesterday's cosmic guidance..."Cautious, pace myself, lighten up a little."  Hmmm...hope I do better with today's guidance.

Today - did my monthly report already - 24 hours early, but I think it will be directionally correct, clean apt, cat tend, walk with family friend, EOLD - Tending to Our Dead Ourselves with Joseph Orso, 2 summit sessions - Surviving the Foxhole — boundaries, scripts, and nervous-system tools for the acute season with Dr. Karen Wyatt — hospice physician and host of End-of-Life University, on "What I Wish Every Family Knew Before Someone They Love is Dying." She's also bringing a Bedside Guide to Forgiveness, for finding some peace while you are still, in fact, angry. Which most people are, and almost nobody admits. And Nicole Heidbreder — I'm taking the second Day 3 slot myself, because this is the only purely practical day and the foxhole is the part I know from both sides: I've been the hospice nurse standing in the middle of somebody else's family war, and I've been the daughter in my own. So I'm doing the session I wish somebody had handed me. Dancing with Triangulation (and how to stay out of it). What to do when you've quietly become the family's messenger. How to be in a room without absorbing everything in it.  Cat tend #2 after first session. Will see what else falls into the day. 

You need to stop running here, there and everywhere and getting nowhere fast and to slow down long enough to take a proper look at your current situation. Almost certainly it’s not half as serious as you think it is, so quit worrying.

You may find yourself at a loss for words as Mercury exits your sign, dearest Libra, making its debut in Scorpio. Rather than forcing communication, allow yourself to take in each moment and organize your thoughts. Maintaining a sharp perspective and level head will serve you throughout the coming weeks. If you watch closely, the world grows abundant with magick and signs from the universe once Luna enters Gemini. A sweet aspect with Mars encourages you to do some exploring. Try to make friends along the way as the Moon aligns with Neptune, Pluto, and Uranus, bringing a fated energy to any instant connections you experience. 

Are you involved in a creative project that involves modern technology, Libra? If so, progress could be made by leaps and bounds, starting today. A lucky break might set you off in a new direction that adds depth and dimension to your work. Communication with colleagues should be warm, congenial, and supportive. There is a sense of unity that pervades the group and adds to the energy and enthusiasm. You will love the results of your efforts.

Quit worrying, loss for words?, sense of unity...Time will tell.  Full mind of thoughts instead of full heart as I enter today.  :/ Let's hope for a nice lift.  Have a good Wednesday.  

Well that was a day...heart is full.

Thought of the word "balance" after yesterday.  Incredible sessions for listening presented in the "The Death Inside the Death".  And the day built up around them.  But day started with the dreaded cat tending and another day of rain.  Oh well.  Cat was fine.  :)  Praise the lord the swimming lady did not get a dog!  

So yesterday - did clothes washing, cat, dropped off Good Morning, Midnight at library, Shoprite/ALDI.  As I shared with family friend who gets a kick out of my spend/save tracking.  "Shopping report - $14.92/5 items ALDI - Grapes, bread, peanut butter.  Shoprite - $27.27/$23.75 13 items.  All sale items except my chunk-o-cheese which is cheaper than ALDI in Shoprite brand size and form.  Pancake makings/syrup on sale, Progresso soup sale, bar soap sale, bananas, free dozen eggs coupon used."  And as to my travels, I have to smile - I know it is just psychological but since I have my tire pumper upper, my car feels more "solid" on the road.  :)  Went out for soaking wet sneakers umbrella walk. (Sneakers on the window sill but low expectations of "dryness" for today's walk).  Then into first session of week long set of discussion that I signed up for.  1 p.m. and 6 p.m.  After 1 p.m. swung by cat (do 2 stops per day).  Then 4 p.m. FEN. Then ZEN DC after 6 p.m. session.  WHEW!

Today - will run dishwasher, cat, walk, 1 p.m. and 6 p.m. again and just begged off Rochester DC when I realized that the 1 and 6 pms are running 90 minutes each rather than what I thought would be 60.  Will do second cat after the 1 p.m.  Shared the replay of the sessions with sister #1 and GA DC facilitator.  

Also shared with sister #1 re her gentleman caller's ER adventure of the past weekend.  Glad to hear that he has a POLST and that they might consider taking it on the road with them.  ER visits seem to be a part of their recent travels...  I am thinking that he never lost consciousness on your latest sojourn but since you - to my knowledge - are not his Healthcare POA, might you two want to travel with a fully executed POLST form?  Print POLST form on Pulsar Pink card stock (65#)   POLST or MOLST depending on state - color is dependent on state also - is the most likely document to be honored because it is signed by a doctor.  I have heard all kinds of tales about orders not being honored, but because it is at the doctor-to-doctor level, it has the best chance.  And, And if he hasn't and would want to, he might want to amend any Living Will he has to reflect his pacemaker and what he wants to have happen if the pacemaker is the only thing keeping him "alive".  That situation moved Katy Butler to write the book The Art of Dying Well about the aftermath of her Wesleyan professor father with a pacemaker and what she and her mother had to go through when that was the case for him.  

Will see where I am taken today in my thinking.  My mind is "a place" for sure.  :)

Although yesterday’s Sun-Uranus link gave a lift to your sense of adventure, you will need to be a bit more cautious over the next 24 hours. That applies doubly when dealing with people in positions of power, at least one of whom may see you as a threat.

Fortify your voice and sense of self by connecting with peers who share similar interests, dearest Libra. You'll crave community and a place to be heard while Mercury is active in your sign, aspecting the nodes of fate and Chiron. Now is also a good time to acknowledge and release any thoughts to prevent you from putting yourself out there to make new friends. Seek structured environments such as clubs, classes, or meetup groups to find ease within unfamiliar social situations. Bonds form quickly when the Taurus Moon and Jupiter align this evening, but it's important to pace yourself as guards are lowered. 

Don't be surprised to see your co-workers acting a bit silly today, Libra. There is no getting around the high spirits that permeate the work environment. It's almost impossible to get anything done with today's planetary atmosphere. Rather than cracking the whip and trying to increase productivity, why not join in? Lighten up a little.

Perhaps dial it down a bit after the day I had yesterday. AND a no rain walk should be possible.  Cautious, pace myself, lighten up a little...that is a mouthful for me.  :)  Have a good Tuesday.  

Still a little rain but things settling

Couple of coastal people checked in.  Niece #4 said all was OK, she was practicing her suturing...not sure what/who practice takes place.  :) Picture from my cousin from Hammonasset from 4 p.m. on Sunday.  Sibling call from sister #1.  Gentleman caller OK.  Listening to news as we speak.  Will see if everyone is back with power and schools in session.  5:05 a.m. as we speak.  Did reminisce that it was a good thing that NC friends did their New England tour LAST September.  They would have been on the tail end of their travels during this stormy time.  Phew.  :)  Cat tend, walked to Unionville - soggy not soaking, cat tend, topped off my tires with my new pump machine - only one tire needed a shot, Death Sangha, read, Albany CA DC to end the day.  Waiting "patiently" to hear from swimming lady as to when she is due home.  :/  (insert praying hands emoji)  :)

Today - cat tend, walk, Shoprite/ALDI, 1 p.m. and 6 p.m. first day of 5 days for ‘Death Inside the Death’ , cat tend, 4 p.m. FEN, 7:30 p.m. ZEN DC...will drop off Good Morning, Midnight book.  Tomorrow will pick up the Eggers that came in for me.  The Every.  

Today’s Sun-Uranus link will encourage you to do something exciting, but as Uranus is going through its retrograde phase, you must be careful as well. You’re not invincible, so don’t take on challenges you have no way of knowing will work out for the best.

Limit your interactions to people who help you feel safe, dearest Libra, as the Aries Moon aspects Mercury, Chiron, and the nodes of fate. You'll crave slow, soft, and meaningful moments once Luna debuts in Taurus. Though a harsh square with Mars suggests you won't have the freedom to lay low. As you prepare to head out for the day or log into work, connect with your senses. Remember this practice as the hours pass to prevent overstimulation. Leaning into spiritual practices can also generate fun surprises, thanks to a sweet aspect between the Sun and Uranus. Be wary of anyone who tries to change you or make you doubt yourself when Pluto activates this afternoon. 

You've been so busy these past few weeks that you may have inadvertently neglected the special person in your life, Libra. It's been fun to be out and about together, but that has left little time for closeness and snuggling. Try to rectify that today. In fact, a midafternoon nap might be called for. Why not invite your honey to join you?

No honey and I will limit interactions with all people today except online.  :)  "Thought full" was "my word" at the Sangha yesterday.  Very good guided meditation.  I am a reluctant meditator, but this group is very encouraging to "peace full".  Have a good Monday.  

And there it went... :)

Yesterday was a heart of hearts day in my world!!!  It must have been the electricity in the weather system passing over my part of the world.  But I was positively and completely inundated - not with rain or wind as forecast - but outreach from people who are significant in my life.  And "surprise, surprise"... not - 3 were from the southern part of heaven.  :)  

Started my day with my cat tending...hope swimming lady comes home soon.  :/  Can't figure why old people would acquire late in life pets.  :)  Went on an abbreviated walk thinking that any minute the rain and wind would be unleashed...never happened even into the overnight.  But I read almost all of my October book club book and that was a great read to do in casi one sitting.  Heard from NC friend whose wife is in their CCRC's memory unit.  I had written a poem and sent it his way.  Got this in "return mail" -  Thank you for your kind "Be alert. be present, be loving” note. I loved it and with it receive your “buckets of love.”  I will read your lovely poem to Mary tonight at dinner. Like me, she will cry and love it. Thank you for thinking of us. What a joy to have you on our pathway of life!  AND got a call from my brother!!!  AND got the kindest words from dearest friends in that neck of the woods.  They are having their first overnight guests soon at their new house.  Wish that was me!  We will see what I can do about that as we go through the balance of 2026...

Only local coastal report I got was from sister #6.  Nothing burger out her way as of yesterday afternoon.  The only "action" was that sister #1 and gentleman caller were in the emergency room in the town where sister #6 lives.  An hour ambulance ride from where sister #1 is vacationing...AND sister #1 decided to go back to their cottage instead of staying with sister #6.  People are funny.  I will see what sister #1 has to say in my sibling call this a.m.  

So yesterday I would say my day was 80% reading.  But I slept like a log with full dreams.  Very interesting day.  There was some cosmic "dust up" for sure as that meteorological event took place in the vicinity.  

Today - cat tending, walk to Unionville, I think I am going to designate Sunday as my check my tires day so that getting out and about for my Monday grocery shopping is not derailed, cat tending second round of the day, Death Sangha at 1 p.m., Albany CA DC at 7 p.m.  Tomorrow - 1 p.m., 4 p.m., 6 p.m., 7:30 p.m.  

This week - 1 p.m. and 6 p.m. each day will have an hour with some great speakers - some I know and some I do not.  Good timing as we go into a "family" time of year.  https://www.gracefulfusion.com/families  

The more you get involved in the world around you over the next few days the more of an influence you can have on how events develop. Your special ability to see both sides of a story means you will be in demand as a voice of reason.

Developing relationships will begin to feel more serious, dearest Libra, causing you to consider if your latest romantic conquest could be the one. As the Aries Moon aligns with Saturn and Jupiter, turn to friends for a second opinion. Merging social spheres can be a safe step in the right direction, providing additional insights into your beloved's life beyond your embrace. Try not to let overly critical companions inflate minor issues when Mars squares Chiron before entering Leo tonight. If they don't let up, set boundaries to end the conversation, or your perception might become skewed for good.

Generally, you're a very sociable person, Libra, and today you won’t want to slow down. Invitations to parties, from intimate coffee klatches to big neighborhood bashes, continue to come in, but you weigh the pros and cons of attending carefully now. Saying no goes against your nature because you don't want to miss anything. But right now, you must pick the most important to you and leave the rest.

No problem being selective for me.  Yesterday was a great representation of those I hold close.  Will open my eyes to that a bit wider today to think through matching actions to that feeling.  Have a good Sunday.  

Here we go! :) Weather and weathermen :/

Sister #4 sent this pic from yesterday from her area...nothing as of that time - mid day Friday.  We will see if things change.  :)  Sisters #1,4,6 are all coastal as we speak today.  I have nothing outside my window as we speak.  Waiting for the morning update from the hype-master meteorologists.  But I will stay ready.  

Yesterday Friday reservoir route, in car to go to massage and swung by the library to stock up in case I am in the house a lot because of rain.  AND I got a notice when I was home that my Eggers' requested book is in - The Every. Have to pick up by Oct 1.  But right now on my bedside table - A Fortune of Sand/Sepetys, A Vast Horizon/Thomasson, Don't be Evil/Stapleton, God's Country/Krueger.  Did I already read that Krueger?  I will check my library history but I think not.  Then from library, drove to massage.  Tires and car behaved.  It is only a mile up and back but I had not driven the car since I topped off my tires with my new pump.  :)  Great massage.  Then I walked up to swimming lady's to cat tend.  Will head back later this morning and possibly this afternoon.  I will do what I need to do so that if it is too rainy and windy, I don't have to go out.  Then a phone call from TX/NM friend.  She is still both.  She and her husband are not the proud owners of 3 homes - 2 NM and 1 TX.  Furniture still in TX house.  She is guesting at her sister's.  

Today - walk before rain is my plan - fingers crossed.  Then cat tend.  Then become one with my couch if the storm does appear.  I will hope that lights and cable stay on.  This week's All-In cued up to listen to next.  Will see how day unfolds from there.  

An NC friend called.  He wanted to let me know what my brother had already shared with me.  His wife got her official diagnosis - Alzheimer's.  I did not share that I had heard from his wife a few weeks back when she "happened on" her phone and gave me a call.  Fortunate that they are where they are, getting the care they both need, AND have the money to fund it all.  

The time for thinking is over and the time for action has arrived. The full moon in your opposite sign will give you plenty of excuses to do nothing but if you don’t act decisively now you will always regret it. Don’t do it tomorrow, do it today!

The love, joy, and kindness you put into the world are reflected to you, dearest Libra, as the Aries Full Moon rises. Sweet aspects with Neptune, Uranus, and Pluto underline just how far your influence goes, and distant friends may return to your orbit. You might also feel inspired to reconnect with estranged companions, but it's important to be intentional about who you invite into your life. Seek only the affections of those who bring out the best in you, and avoid dynamics that have a competitive history. Indulge your romantic side before the day comes to a close, allowing Luna's dreamy vibes to engulf you.

Today you may feel a passionate attraction for someone intelligent who perhaps makes a living in law, education, or publishing, Libra. Conversations with this person could touch on some deep issues, such as spiritual matters, the human psyche, or the nature of the universe. You should be deeply affected, not only by the person but also by the subjects. Take a walk later to clear your head.

Cosmic guidance looks to be putting me through my paces.  :)  We will see if I follow instruction.  Have a good Saturday and keep a good thought for the coastal sisters.