I am a bit unsettled about my TX friend sharing with me that her husband came back from last weekend's conference he went to with COVID...here is what I shared with her this a.m. She is going to pass on doing a one night stopover on Tuesday on her way to her sister's...I was torn as to what to do when sister #1 and her gentleman caller arrived on Wednesday. And sister #4 on Friday or Saturday and of course the memorial service on Saturday morning and reunion on Saturday night...I shared the following with her this a.m. I feel like a bad friend, but I never know what people do with COVID info - 4 years out.
Thank you for seeing my angst. I appreciate not having to figure out what to do post a Tuesday stopover as to interacting with sister #1 and her gentleman caller. I wish that our world's response in March of 2020 had been "let it roll whatever it is", no shutdown, let life and death happen. The trauma all seems so self-inflicted as we sit now. And so lingering 4 years out. But the fact that you, sister #1, gentleman caller, sister #4 - even my landlord and his wife - continue to booster themselves against it, must mean it still feels as a threat to your well-being that requires "treatment". I can identify very few things (a broken bone would be a test for me but I can't think of anything else?) that require treatment for anyone over 70 years old...but that is me and that thinking happened for me at age 40. :) I feel that my getting the first vaccine and only round in my "I have to put it in the polio bucket, not the flu bucket" thinking was misplaced but I did what I did.
As to this week, ignorance could have been bliss, but once heard I could not unhear the words - your husband has COVID. But if in ignorance even a bad cold like event had caused sister #1, gentleman caller, sister #4 to "go down" for a couple of days...I would have felt terrible - the three of them, like you, have lots on their dockets! I will not be sharing with anyone about what is up with your travel changes. I will leave that to you to share or not as the week goes on. I did share with one of the pool ladies yesterday but what is shared at the pool, stays at the pool. She knows enough about me to know how having to deal with anything with people and/or the medical industrial complex is a challenging thing for me to work through. And when it concerns both 💥. I was toying with the idea of asking sister #1 how she would feel if she knew the back story, but I was afraid she would change HER plans and she has worked so hard on this reunion. I will ask her POST event to see if I created a situation that would not have been a situation AND to create a playbook for going forward. It would not be the first time for me and "my ways" to create a situation. But it might be something we will deal with in September at wedding time as we deal with potential "what ifs" so I will be more informed then as to what "regular people" would do with this type COVID related information.
Obviously this has gotten me on a mental tear. And as my son says, I can overthink anything.
Again, I have no playbook for this. I am so sad that this wrinkle entered the world THIS week. I am solitary for all but a handful of days out of any year. of my life since 2001.. :/ Keep me posted as the week develops.
What a start to my Monday... Yesterday sweaty walk to Unionville, pool, lots of thinking about the week ahead. Put the POWER book aside and spent more time with "Strange Angel" John Whiteside Parsons. Again, so interesting about how rocket science and bomb creation came to be. From the book jacket, ..."George Pendle re-creates the world John Parsons, leader of the motley band of enthusiastic young men to founded the Jet Propulsion Laboratory, a cornerstone of the American space program. With a cast of characters including Howard Hughes, L. Ron Hubbard, and Robert Heinlein, "Strange Angel" explores the unruly consequence of genius." This piles on to my Walter Isaacson bios reading. Need to find a book about a genius woman and see if she has the same wiring. :)
Although someone in a position of power has clearly made a big impression on you in recent weeks you must not follow them blindly. You are still your own boss and ultimately the decisions you make must be for your own benefit.
Other people's stubborn attitudes may be hindering your progress, Libra. Take this as a hint that you need to loosen your grip on a certain viewpoint that you're holding too tightly. There's a great deal of power behind your emotions today, and these emotions want to be heard. Feel free to jump up and take the podium. Speak your mind even though you may not necessarily agree with the group.
You could surprise yourself in business matters as Venus and Uranus align, dearest Libra, so don't hesitate to lean into your power, negotiate, and command respect. You'll find that it's easy to win over others as Mercury aligns with the Nodes of Fate, especially when knowledge is shared, and capabilities are demonstrated. Just watch out for jealousy amongst peers when the Leo moon squares off with Mars this afternoon, threatening to trigger power struggles or sketchy behaviors. Lose yourself in a moment of softness when Chiron activates this evening, offering harmony and healing when you call in grace.
Today - drop off book at library. Walk. Swim. ZEN DC tonight. Phew. Need to calm my mind. :) Have a good Monday.
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